When things happen I revert straight to old habits and then hate myself. Why the heck can't I get my eating under control, some days I just eat and eat and eat.
I don't like who I am at the moment, I hate putting my jeans on only to realise I look like crap, I hate getting dressed to go somewhere and feeling like I look like shit.
I need this, so why can't I get my head around this??? It makes me so mad.
Maybe I need to focus on the positives and change my outlook which in turn will change my headpsace. Some of the positives are:
- I no longer drink alcohol every night of the week - at most it's a beer or 2 1-2 nights per week.
- I'm loving getting up on a Saturday and not being hungover.
- I love that my partner doesn't drink as much anymore cause he doesn't have a 'drinking buddy' at home anymore.
- My blood pressure is 'normal' again.
Lots of thinking to be done tonight. Need to sort my head out.
I'm sure I'll get there.